hmmm

So I feel like there is this moment in every ones faith where a major stepping stone occurs, where a shift from just coasting along and speaking up when needed to someone actively pursuing and loving God. I feel like i finally get it and i can make the decisions that would cause me to totally depend on him and just him. I had been on what felt like a plateau for the last two years and i tried and tried different ways to get out of it. I cant really tell you what the turning point was but suddenly I got it, worship songs have a whole new meaning sermons aren't just words and my bible isn't just something to make me feel good. I'm excited to see what the next couple of months have in store for me as i embark on a new part of my life with a new understanding of life.

Ironman

Everyone wants to be a hero, there is no way around it. I watched Iron man this evening with some pretty neat friends and this hardcore "I can do anything and everything" attitude came while watching it.Its funny when you get that feeling cause you try to find ways to keep it, we try to find ways to keep this sense of power. While trying to write this thing I realized, we try so hard to get all this power whether it be through school, through friends, through choices or even through driving and its funny cause the last place we think to turn to is God. I feel kind of convicted about it. I know it sounds weird, " Ryan's feels like she sinned cause she wanted to be like Iron man" but its so much more than that. Its the fact that knowing my first initial response is to turn to myself or to materialistic things when really its so much easier to turn to him. Whats sad is our whole camp theme for junior high camp was "Action Heros- to be a hero of God" and it took me four months to figure it out.

"You can enter God's Kingdom only through the narrow gate. The highway to hell is broad, and its gate is wide for the many who choose the easy way. But the gateway to life is small, and the road is narrow, and only a few ever find it."

-Matthew 7:13-14

Can I just say children has to be one of the best things God has ever created. They find away to be cute in any situation regaurdless of the annoyance they cause. As VBS came to an end I realized how much more commitment I need to put in it next year, my kids were amazing but you could tell there was a lack of I guess love because I lacked the passion for seeking God.

Coleman's gone for eleven days and i'm so happy. I could pretend I'm gonna miss him but just changing up an enviorment temporarly is really exciting! I am jealous he gets to go backpacking and be one with nature but I'm gonna enjoy a small dose of Independence I think with being able to do things and not worry about how my other half will react or what his plans for coordinating purposes.

Wow us girls can really mess some things up. Lets just stopppp.

Anyways I had an awesome time at VBS and chillin with Brittany pretty much the last two days. I love life right now and I am one blessed person.

Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit. Let us not become conceited, provoking and envying each other.
-Galatians 5:25-26